Sorry if replying above a quote confuses anyone. Yes, I am discovering through dreams that a reset may very wellhave been what happened. I think it is possible that I brought it on myself by closing off all my chakras in a moment of self defense, then one closed and the powers they operate and are in charge of are blocked, I cannot simply just open them anymore. I have to train and practice to reopen them.
I hate to think what would cause me to close off all my chakras and energy centers at once. and I am not sure exactly when it happened, but my subconscience did it, which means it was an autonomic self preservation thing. Something very bad and very big must have happened someplace and I had a connection to it.
Before all of this, I was an energy worker/healer, and have been experimented on by aliens. Whether their intentions are good or not, I have never liked being taken against my will. When it happened, I began to question everything that had been happening and whether it was even real or not. This cam about over the summer last year.
I have had full fledged hallucinations, things which were not real and not there occuring, and they intermingled with real stuff. At some point my psyche either disassociated itself, or fractured to separate the two. Psychic/soul fractures are an uncommon psychi/magical injury which usually resorts from some sort of severe trauma mentally, emotionally, physically or spiritually, or possibly on every level. I only suspect this because slowly my ability with prophetic dreams has come back. They of course cannot be controlled, but they are something at least. They have been warning me are telling me about some sort of cataclysmic event. Whether on a large scale or to me personally. I cannot yet tell if this is a past thing or a present thing.
Shortly before all of this began I had a period of missing time, which i snothing new for an abductee. Normally upon return I felt hazy and out of sorts, but this time I was down right sick. I vomited and had stomach flu like symptoms for days. I was afraid at first I had been irradiated, but none of the other symptoms came. However as these symptoms subsided the abilities went away.
Abilities I proclaim to have, (Because most you cannot really prove on a whim, and real people would not bother anyways.) clairvoyance, clairaudience, spirit sense, natural wild inborn magic, healing abilities, alien alterations which enhanced the affore listed abilities.
Most plausable theory which just struck me as I was writing is this. I was sick because the aliens took back their enhancements, and it left a huge energy deficit, plus was traumatic to my energy system causing me to close myself off in a final attempt at self defense. One of the posts prior had my chakras themselves totally out of alignment and further apart. I think the latest experimentation was with augmenting the chakras, changing their energy form, and possibly even trying to implant filters, amplifiers, breaker systems, and other things into the chakras themselves.
My nervous break down was as if my experiences with aliens were memories and when they surfaced I was terrified like I had been unaware. No one else could see the aliens but me. So I am not on antipsychotic medications, and on anti depressants seeing specialists. These drugs can lower your abilities, and you have to learn to work with them. I think damage has been done to my psyche and my person, as well as my spirit and heart. I think they stopped working on me when the damage was so great it became dangerous to do, and now I have to try and recover and recooperate while learning what is real and what is not, and slowly reopening my damaged chakras, letting them release their toxins, and then slowly as you say start over.
I am attuned through master on Reiki, but its going to take an outside force, and lots of meditation to even get this healing process started. I have been talkig to God alot, and he has not made a recomendation one way or another, except for the fact I am studying the wrong thing in school and he wants me to change my major. I can still here god, and sometime sense things, mostly my abilities are running autonomically through my subconscience, and I cannot seem to directly access them through my conscience mind. What does everyone think, do I sound crazy or do I have a good premise.
The other problem is, I am not the only person this has happened to. What could have transpired that caused so many people to be effected in this way, and more than that, is it only the contactees and abductees, or is it just certain people contactee/adbuctee and otherwise.
Long time no post, been out of the loop. Something has happened to me which I cannot explain, all paranormal activity has ceased along with all my sensitivites and abilities, and I ended up having a nervous break down. Now the question is, what happened, why, and how can it be fixed. I feel blind to say the least.
For an answer to make sense, I'd need you to try and explain what happened to you (however difficult!), what paranormal abilities you lost, and why this is so traumatic to you.
However, if you experienced a reset (reminds me of folks who went through a traffic accident and suffered a lengthy coma), you might attempt to START OVER FRESH, become pupil in some path of learning, like Yoga or the Martial Arts. Find a teacher, develop trust in him/her and train...train.....train.