Hi, it looks like you are very sensitive person. I’m not sure if you should look for someone who will be telling you what to do. There are many sensitive people with the abilities to manipulate you that I would just recommend to go your own way. You are the one who knows what you should do. All you need to do is become good friend with yourself and love yourself more. Also I think you should learn how to say “NO” to everyone who wants too much from you. The job you are doing is very exhausting even for superficial careless person. Learn how to say NO without feeling uncomfortable. Also you should let go the idea that you need someone. Let it go and it will come by itself when the time will be right.
I think you should see thishttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMvw18Gi ... e=youtu.be
Perhaps there is something for you